My little guy is sick. He has strep throat. I feel so bad for him. It's always hard when your children get sick. As a result, my work days and workout schedules have been a bit messed up. I have to say, though, I have been pretty good about getting on the dreadmill here at home. I downloaded some new music and just ran. There is something very freeing about running and not knowing how far or how fast you are going. Even outside, you can guestimate what distance you've gone. I was just running, and better yet, I was running to some very good music. Sometimes music can be background noise and sometimes it can be real intense. Lately, it's been real intense. I listen to the music and really hear the words....then I ponder on those words. My latest downloads include The Avett Brothers, Mumford & Sons, Adele, Dr Dre, Katy Perry and Chris Brown to name a few. I wish I could download new music all the time and be as thrilled as I have been about my music. I can become real stale real fast. While I was running I had some real moments of clarity, some that made me choke up and almost cry. However, crying and running just do not go hand in hand. My running has been a very thoughtful process lately. I suppose it's good for me and I need to keep that outlet to help me work through all the thoughts in my head.
What's on your playlist that keeps you running?
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Monday, February 21, 2011
Rx: Exercise
You know it's pretty bad when the resident 7 year old becomes your motivation. On Thursday ( a normal gym day for me), I asked my little one if he still wanted to go to the gym. Now, I was entirely hoping he would say no. He said yes, but not right away. He wanted to eat and hang at home for a little bit. To me that says no. So I made him dinner and went upstairs to veg. I ended up taking a bit of a power nap (so refreshing!). My little conscience came upstairs and wanted to know when we were going to the gym.....so we went. Now getting there is many times the hardest part and this time it was. Once I am there, I have no problem. I just go! So, Thursday my prescription was filled and I felt good.
Now, as you know, when you don't take all you medicine, you start feeling bad again. Ta da! Enter me by Monday. I didn't work out Friday. I chose to not work out on Saturday even though I had a window of opportunity. WOO does not open very often for me and I generally take advantage of it. Do you want to know why I didn't fulfill my prescription that day??? LAME! I was all dolled up from having pics taken in the morning and didn't want to mess everything up! L-A-M-E. It was even 40-some degrees out. LAME-O! Now, it's Sunday. Freezing rain and basically Mother Nature shitting all over us again. Had to go get my little guy from a sleep over, and try not to drive off the road. Little man did not sleep at the sleep over (does that just make it an "over"?) and proceeded to sleep the rest of the day. Then throw up the rest of the night. Sigh....I hate cleaning up throw-up! Nothing makes you lose your appetite faster.
Monday, day 4 of no prescription. By now, it's pretty dark in my world. Ugh. In my pj's all day with the sick dude. Late afternoon, the sick demons have left and energy is taking hold in lil man.....but not me. I told lil man earlier in the day that I would come down and run when he watches Batman. Of course, he held me to it. It was a struggle getting myself to the treadmill but once I got there it was good. Success number 2 for the lil man. Thank God for that at the moment. I can't seem to find it myself lately. I will take it in any form it comes, I just need it to come.....so come back soon, k?
It would sure be nice if I had some memory recall when I start to feel bad so I could fall back into my prescription and feel better. Maybe it's wrong on some level that I run for escape, maybe its not. I will just keep taking my "prescription" so I can feel better. Now if I can just remember that!!!
Why do you run? What keeps you motivated?
Now, as you know, when you don't take all you medicine, you start feeling bad again. Ta da! Enter me by Monday. I didn't work out Friday. I chose to not work out on Saturday even though I had a window of opportunity. WOO does not open very often for me and I generally take advantage of it. Do you want to know why I didn't fulfill my prescription that day??? LAME! I was all dolled up from having pics taken in the morning and didn't want to mess everything up! L-A-M-E. It was even 40-some degrees out. LAME-O! Now, it's Sunday. Freezing rain and basically Mother Nature shitting all over us again. Had to go get my little guy from a sleep over, and try not to drive off the road. Little man did not sleep at the sleep over (does that just make it an "over"?) and proceeded to sleep the rest of the day. Then throw up the rest of the night. Sigh....I hate cleaning up throw-up! Nothing makes you lose your appetite faster.
Monday, day 4 of no prescription. By now, it's pretty dark in my world. Ugh. In my pj's all day with the sick dude. Late afternoon, the sick demons have left and energy is taking hold in lil man.....but not me. I told lil man earlier in the day that I would come down and run when he watches Batman. Of course, he held me to it. It was a struggle getting myself to the treadmill but once I got there it was good. Success number 2 for the lil man. Thank God for that at the moment. I can't seem to find it myself lately. I will take it in any form it comes, I just need it to come.....so come back soon, k?
It would sure be nice if I had some memory recall when I start to feel bad so I could fall back into my prescription and feel better. Maybe it's wrong on some level that I run for escape, maybe its not. I will just keep taking my "prescription" so I can feel better. Now if I can just remember that!!!
Why do you run? What keeps you motivated?
Sunday, February 20, 2011
New Year - Low Motivation
It's that time again.....when I think I will try to do this again. I keep thinking if I get my thoughts out there, I will be able to sort through them more effectively. Since I last posted (which seems like one-hundred years ago), not much has changed in the "competition" realm. I really haven't done much in the way of entering a race. Quite honestly, I think I'm scared to try anything. I have this fear I won't live up to my expectations (unrealistic that they are). At the same time, I'm missing out on the pure joy of being in the competition. Since Labor Day of 2010, I have been following a lower carb way of eating and working out with my own personal Jillian. It has been wonderful! I've dropped 15 pounds and was able to maintain over the holidays. How great is that! Cool!
Now, it's 2011 and the brunt of winter and the SAD blues have set in. Motivation has packed its bags and moved out with no forwarding address. Makes me more sad. Somehow, I have to find a way to "turn this frown upside down". How stupid is that!?!?! I haven't been training with my Jillian and that bugs me. Our schedules haven't meshed which happens sometimes, but I need her now more than ever. I tend to get off track, especially this time of year. I'm feeling lost as to what I want to do and what I think I am capable of doing. I found out in December that I have a labral tear in my hip. The cortisone shot has done wonders for it but it has made me rethink my running distances. I decided not to do 1/2 marathons anymore. But, I find myself missing the thought of running those races. I'm not convinced I'm giving it up yet. We will see. I want to try some new things too, like more biking and triathlons. Yes, I know I said I wanted that last year too, but I can try again, so I will.
In about 2 weeks I will be heading off to a girls weekend with some old friends. I have a lot of reservations about that too. I'm a little apprehensive about seeing everyone again. It's been a very long time and they really don't know me anymore...well, at least the person I am today, which I think is extremely boring. It will be an interesting weekend for sure. I see myself more of an observer than anything. Don't get me wrong, I am really looking forward to it, I have just been really out of the loop for the past...oh, 7 or 8 years. Nice. Yeah, nice.
Well, I will try to keep up this journey this year. It will be an interesting year for sure. Many changes are sure to happen by years end and it should be a wild ride. Hope you stick with me as I will try to update more often.
Cheers!
Now, it's 2011 and the brunt of winter and the SAD blues have set in. Motivation has packed its bags and moved out with no forwarding address. Makes me more sad. Somehow, I have to find a way to "turn this frown upside down". How stupid is that!?!?! I haven't been training with my Jillian and that bugs me. Our schedules haven't meshed which happens sometimes, but I need her now more than ever. I tend to get off track, especially this time of year. I'm feeling lost as to what I want to do and what I think I am capable of doing. I found out in December that I have a labral tear in my hip. The cortisone shot has done wonders for it but it has made me rethink my running distances. I decided not to do 1/2 marathons anymore. But, I find myself missing the thought of running those races. I'm not convinced I'm giving it up yet. We will see. I want to try some new things too, like more biking and triathlons. Yes, I know I said I wanted that last year too, but I can try again, so I will.
In about 2 weeks I will be heading off to a girls weekend with some old friends. I have a lot of reservations about that too. I'm a little apprehensive about seeing everyone again. It's been a very long time and they really don't know me anymore...well, at least the person I am today, which I think is extremely boring. It will be an interesting weekend for sure. I see myself more of an observer than anything. Don't get me wrong, I am really looking forward to it, I have just been really out of the loop for the past...oh, 7 or 8 years. Nice. Yeah, nice.
Well, I will try to keep up this journey this year. It will be an interesting year for sure. Many changes are sure to happen by years end and it should be a wild ride. Hope you stick with me as I will try to update more often.
Cheers!
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